I don’t go to the gym because I feel motivated.
Most days, I don’t.
Growing up, I was always self-conscious about how skinny I was. My senior year, I was 6 feet tall and weighed about 140 pounds soaking wet. I was a good athlete—soccer and basketball—but strength was never my thing. When my friends signed up for “Weight Training 101,” I didn’t even consider it. I didn’t want anyone to find out how little I could bench.
After high school, that changed. For the first time, I started putting on some fat, and that pushed me into the gym. I went with my brother, sometimes with my wife, and I got hooked. If I’m being honest, I got a little too obsessed with getting stronger and even made some bad decisions trying to speed that up. Eventually, I stepped away from that, but I did get into great shape. At one point, I even thought about stepping on stage for a men’s physique competition.
Then life happened. Kids. Work. Everything else. The gym slowly disappeared.
After my MS diagnosis, things got even more complicated. Medications, side effects, and just trying to feel normal again took priority. For a long time, I assumed that part of my life—lifting, getting strong—was over. I still cared about my health and made sure I stayed active, but I didn’t believe I could get back to that version of myself.
Then around Christmas, something clicked.
I was about 190 pounds, which is heavy for me, and my confidence was as low as I can remember. My son joked about me having a “dad bod.” He didn’t mean anything by it, but it stuck with me. I realized I didn’t feel good about myself—and I wanted to change that.
So I joined a gym.
Years ago, I probably would’ve laughed at the idea of going to Planet Fitness. But this time, I didn’t care about ego. I just needed a place to start. I walked in, picked things up, and got to work for the first time in almost 10 years.
And it felt good.
What surprised me the most wasn’t just the physical part—it was how much it affected the rest of my day. No matter what else happened, I could point to that one thing and say, this was a productive day.
Even more surprising was how quickly my strength started to come back. It felt like my body remembered. What I thought was long gone wasn’t gone at all.
At first, I just focused on lifting and getting my steps in. My diet wasn’t great, but I was moving again. Once I dialed that in—around 1,800 calories and enough protein—the weight started coming off steadily. About one to two pounds per week, while still getting stronger.
In the beginning, I wore hoodies to the gym to hide. Now I don’t. I wear a fitted t-shirt, and at the end of my workouts, I pull my sleeves up and check my arms. Maybe it looks a little vain, but to me, it’s a reminder that the work is paying off.
I don’t always feel like going. But I’ve never once regretted it afterward.
I’m down 18 pounds in 13 weeks and still going. This is the leanest I’ve been in my life. I’m not doing it to show off. I’ll never be the guy running shirtless or wearing a stringer in the gym. That’s not me.
This is for me.
It’s proof that life isn’t over. That even at 35, I can still work toward becoming someone I feel good about.
I’d love to say I don’t care what people think, but I do. I’m working on that. The gym has helped, even in small ways. A quick conversation at the counter. A familiar face. Feeling like I’m someone who shows up and puts in the work.
For a long time, I tried to look unapproachable. Now, I’m just a guy in the gym trying to get better.
More than anything, I want my kids to see this. If you’re unhappy with something about yourself, you can change it. It won’t be easy, but it’s possible.
The gym is helping me become someone I haven’t felt like in a long time—disciplined, hardworking, athletic, tough.
And for the first time in a while, I can see that version of myself again.
So I go. Even when I don’t feel like it.
Stronger For Them 